Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Divine Romance

(photo by Randy Olive; sunset over Wimberley, TX)


This morning, I heard a new song (well, new to me!) and I keep replaying it over and over. It is speaking to me...

Divine Romance
- Phil Wickham

The fullness of Your grace is here with me
The richness of Your beauty’s all I see
The brightness of Your glory has arrived
In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied

For You I sing I dance
Rejoice in this divine romance
Lift my heart and my hands
To show my love, to show my love

A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You
Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life
In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied

Wow. (Not to mention that there's a banjo in the version with a band!) Beautiful words, beautiful song, beautiful prayer. Divine Romance. Do I live like that? Do I live like I am in a DIVINE ROMANCE with my Jesus? Everyday? How can I not?!? I am reminded of what He did for me this week. He deserves ALL the glory - I deserve none - yet He chooses to pay attention to me and lift me up. We seem to have LOST the simplicity of what He longs for... a relationship with us. To WALK with us through good days and bad. To laugh and cry together, to grow together, to live together. I'm reminded that it's ME who pulls away sometimes. HE is ALWAYS there waiting. What He did for me is ENOUGH! He IS Divine Romance. How could I not live in that?

Monday, April 6, 2009

Uplifted

Last night, we were uplifted. Randy just wrote about it as well (below). A night full of music, laughter, and tears with old friends and new ones. Speaking into each others' lives, encouraging one another, sharing God stories... Wow - If only everyone could get a regular dose of what we experienced last night. Thank you to Bruce and Connie for offering your office, your time, your words and your wisdom with a bunch of "kids."

(taken from Randy's blog)

A Pastor and Church

Last night I went to Clay Road Baptist Church. Our friends Justin and Natalie go there, and we went to go see an Easter program they were singing in. Last night we had church. Not in the sense we sat in a room, in a building listened to someone talk, listened to someone sing, and prayed. (Even though we had some very genuine worship.) Church happened when we met for the first time their pastor Bruce and his wife Connie. Justin and Natalie always talk about how great their pastor and his wife are. We definitely experienced that. After the service we made small talk with Bruce and Connie. Justin wanted us to see Bruce's office. So Justin, Natalie, Robin, Ellen and myself (a bunch of 20 somethings) along with Bruce and Connie went to go see Bruce's office. The office was nice, but it only served as a room for us to have church that evening. The seven of us sat in that office for two and half hours sharing stories of what God is doing in our lives, what God has done in our past, what God has gifted us with; there was singing, there was laughing, there was even a bit of crying, but every single thing that came out of us that night was honoring to our God and was for sharpening each other! Amen. This man Bruce and his wife Connie are a spiritual force to be reckoned with. The coolest thing...we didn't TRY to create a moment, we just were vulnerable to letting the spirit move. Ill write about Bruce and Connie later, but for now...I want to leave with this--last night I met two true pastors in every sense of the word and we had CHURCH in that little office. :)

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Wedding Weekend and Submission


I LOVE wedding weekends! This past weekend, our friends - Matt and Hillary - got married!! They had the most beautiful, elegant, classy wedding at Champion Forest and reception at Chateau Polonez (one of my favorite places ever!). Jonathan was the best man and I was in Hillary's house party (I love being in weddings with my brother!). They also had Randy and I read scripture right after Hillary's father gave her away. We read from Ephesians 5 - I read Paul's advice to the women and Randy read Paul's advice to the men. I had never seen this done in a wedding, but I loved the concept!

Ephesians 5:22-33 -

Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. After all, no one ever hated his own body, but he feeds and cares for it, just as Christ does the church - for we are members of his body. "For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh." This is a profound mystery - but I am talking about Christ and the church. However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.

Coming from a church background, I have heard this many times. Coming from a line of very strong women, I have always cringed when I read this passage. I always thought, well, this is a nice idea for girls who are weak or who don't want to think for themselves. I, however, know that God gave me gifts of leadership and a strong will and mind to think for myself... I don't think this really applies to me.

Hmmm, REALLY? I actually thought I could get away with DECIDING that God's word didn't apply to me?? REALLY? Well, God has used my own marriage and Randy to renew my mind when it comes to this command.

1. If I am to submit, then Randy is to lead. I DON'T HAVE TO! To lead my family is Randy's responsibility. It takes a huge weight off my shoulders. And if Randy is following God, and I am following Randy, we are both following God!

2. I have found it's actually EASY to follow a great leader. Randy includes me in decision-making, honors me, loves me, provides for me, and protects my heart. Who wouldn't want to follow that?

3. (now, this point I am borrowing/stealing from Ben Stuart) Even Jesus submitted to the Father (God)... by choice! He said, "Not my will, but yours be done." AND, Jesus and the father are equal in the trinity (Father (God), Son (Jesus Christ), and Holy Spirit). Through reading Genesis, I know God created Randy and I EQUAL - and in His image. It is repeated many times - God created man in his image - male and female he created them. Just because I am to submit doesn't mean that I am less, it's just the way God designed it to be. I am reflecting Jesus while Randy reflects the loving strength of the Father.

God's designs always point back to himself. If people see my marriage with Randy leading with love and me following him with respect, what a picture of God! He created our two genders for good. He did NOT create abuse or disrespect between male and female.

Marriage has actually changed me a lot, I think. I have a bigger faith, bigger love for my husband and for others, bigger emotions (I used to NEVER cry), bigger passions and bigger desires to fulfill my purpose here and point others to God.

Marriage is beautiful and has God's fingerprints all over its design. Matt and Hill, thank you so much for including Randy and I in your big day. How loved and blessed you are! We think the world of you both and can't wait to see what God has in store for your new family!! See you when you get home from Jamaica!!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

God's Lawyer



This past weekend, I had the privilege of helping lead worship at my church, Community of Faith. This is very special to me for two reasons: (1) I believe God gave me a gift and a passion for worship through music and (2) I get to sing with one of my very best friends, Robin Jackson.

During the message, my pastor (Mark Shook) said something so simple, yet so profound! He said, "We are not called to be God's lawyer and prove his existence." What? I think I knew that, but I began to chew on those words.

Acts 1:8 - "But you will receive power (ability, efficiency, and might) when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And you will be my witnesses, telling people about me everywhere - in Jerusalem, throughout Jedea, in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." (New Living and Amplified)

Again, Jesus did NOT call us to be his lawyer, he simply called us to preach. Not that each of us need to stand up in front of a church audience, but more simply, just to TELL. We're called to be his WITNESSES and share our story of how we have SEEN God at work in our lives.

What a relief! You know, even after being a Christian for the majority of my life, I still do not have the scientific or theological background needed to win a religious debate. But I DO have powerful stories of how God has changed my life.

Does having a story mean that you're perfect? No. Hopefully, your story will NEVER be finished. You should ALWAYS be seeing how God is at work in your life. So maybe you'll fail next week. So? Do not NOT share your story. Falling is a part of your story - and God picking you back up is an even more powerful part of your story!

Another worry you might have is that someone will argue with you. Note: THIS IS YOUR STORY!! They canNOT argue against YOUR story. How God has changed YOUR life... you OWN it. How God has impacted your life... NO ONE can argue it. (Realize this: your story will be even MORE powerful when you LIVE OUT the life change!)

Since Sunday, I've already had two opportunities to share this simple truth with people. Everyone seems to be so relieved to understand this truth.

Challenge: share your story! With your family, with your friends, with your co-workers, neighbors, everyone.

(image from: playbackstl.com)

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

BOLDNESS

(This particular blog entry is dedicated to my grandmother, Lynette Adam, who inspires me to be a BOLD woman of God.)

I realize that I cannot actually put to words my firm beliefs on being BOLD. This is a feeble attempt compared to what is actually in my heart.

I have always been pretty stubborn, hardheaded, and confident (I definitely get this from my mother!). Besides confidence, these traits are typically perceived as negative, especially for a woman, ESPECIALLY for a Christian woman (whom many believe should be quiet and timid and soft at all times). Recently, however, I have learned to use these personality traits for God’s glory by turning them into boldness.

The best compliment I ever received was that I am dangerous for the Kingdom! This compliment was shared with me after I had opened my (big) mouth in defense for something God had placed in my heart. I did not give in to fear or cower under ‘political’ pressure, rather I, the only female in the room, stood up for myself and for what I believed in. This particular act ended up pointing straight to God and reminding people of His importance in our decision-making.

Boldness requires OPENING YOUR MOUTH. How dare you keep quiet when something is wrong? Wrong against your faith, wrong against someone you love, wrong against humanity… Boldness also requires a STRONG CONFIDENCE in your thoughts and beliefs. Do you KNOW what you believe? This would be a great place to start. Ask questions. Read books. Read the Bible. Gain an unwavering set of standards and beliefs for your life, and become BOLD with them.

If needed, be willing to DEFEND these beliefs. Do NOT allow someone to tell you to not be defensive when it comes to something you know God has put in your heart.

Now, PLEASE hear my heart on this:

Do NOT confuse boldness with pride or a “right” to be snobby, self-righteous or arrogant. NOTHING could be MORE unattractive than these things… ESPECIALLY from a Christian. I have stuck my foot in my mouth NUMEROUS times and completely regretted some words that I have spoken to people. I was totally abusing my ‘boldness’ that God has given me by using it when unnecessary. I am sorry for these events and they have come to be fewer and further between. I’m asking God to help me use this “gift” at the right times and at other times to help me look like Him with compassion and mercy. Boldness does not mean having a hard spirit at all times.

When I die, I want to be remembered for being a BOLD woman of God, that I would open my mouth and use the brain and confidence that God has given me.

(For further encouragement in this area, read the following verses. These come from either New International Version, The Message, or New Living Translation.)


2 Chronicles 19:11
"Be bold and diligent. And God be with you as you do your best."

Psalm 119:41
Let your love, God, shape my life with salvation, exactly as you promised; Then I'll be able to stand up to mockery because I trusted your Word. Don't ever deprive me of truth, not ever— your commandments are what I depend on. Oh, I'll guard with my life what you've revealed to me, guard it now, guard it ever; And I'll stride freely through wide open spaces as I look for your truth and your wisdom; Then I'll tell the world what I find, speak out boldly in public, unembarrassed.

Psalm 138:3
When I called, you answered me; you made me bold and stouthearted.

Proverbs 10:10
People who wink at wrong cause trouble, but a bold reproof promotes peace.

Proverbs 28:1
The wicked are edgy with guilt, ready to run off even when no one's after them; Honest people are relaxed and confident, bold as lions. (The Message) – (my thoughts: there can still be a relaxed confidence in your boldness – because it should come from God – there should be a balance of boldness compassion and mercy – doesn’t naturally make sense, but it reflects God’s character.)

Matthew 14:27-30
But Jesus was quick to comfort them. "Courage, it's me. Don't be afraid." Peter, suddenly bold, said, "Master, if it's really you, call me to come to you on the water." He said, "Come ahead." – and then he jumped. (The Message) – here Peter’s courage and boldness combined to take extreme ACTION in FAITH.

Mark 2:1
After a few days, Jesus returned to Capernaum, and word got around that he was back home. A crowd gathered, jamming the entrance so no one could get in or out. He was teaching the Word. They brought a paraplegic to him, carried by four men. When they weren't able to get in because of the crowd, they removed part of the roof and lowered the paraplegic on his stretcher. Impressed by their bold belief, Jesus said to the paraplegic, "Son, I forgive your sins."

Acts 4:29
Now, Lord, consider their threats and enable your servants to speak your word with great boldness.

Acts 4:31
After they prayed, the place where they were meeting was shaken. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly. (NIV)

Acts 28:31
Boldly and without hindrance he preached the kingdom of God and taught about the Lord Jesus Christ.

2 Corinthians 3:12
Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold.

Ephesians 3:11
All this is proceeding along lines planned all along by God and then executed in Christ Jesus. When we trust in him, we're free to say whatever needs to be said, bold to go wherever we need to go. So don't let my present trouble on your behalf get you down. Be proud!

Philippians 1:20
For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but that I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past. And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die.

Hebrews 4:16
So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.

Hebrews 10:19
And so, dear brothers and sisters, we can boldly enter heaven’s Most Holy Place because of the blood of Jesus.

James 1:5
If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought. People who "worry their prayers" are like wind-whipped waves. Don't think you're going to get anything from the Master that way, adrift at sea, keeping all your options open.

I John 3:18-24
My dear children, let's not just talk about love; let's practice real love. This is the only way we'll know we're living truly, living in God's reality. It's also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. For God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves. And friends, once that's taken care of and we're no longer accusing or condemning ourselves, we're bold and free before God! We're able to stretch our hands out and receive what we asked for because we're doing what he said, doing what pleases him.

1 John 5:13
My purpose in writing is simply this: that you who believe in God's Son will know beyond the shadow of a doubt that you have eternal life, the reality and not the illusion. And how bold and free we then become in his presence, freely asking according to his will, sure that he's listening. And if we're confident that he's listening, we know that what we've asked for is as good as ours.

Monday, January 26, 2009

From One Pair of Sisters to Another




I love this. Many of you have probably already read this, but when Sasha and Malia Obama arrived to the White House, a letter was there for them written by Barbara and Jenna Bush. The letter offers some priceless memories and precious words of advice. I love that in this instance, political party boundaries were put aside and the Bush girls were able to lovingly share their hearts with the Obama girls. Enjoy!

“Sasha and Malia, we were seven when our beloved grandfather was sworn in as the 41st President of the United States. We stood proudly on the platform, our tiny hands icicles, as we lived history. We listened intently to the words spoken on Inauguration Day service, duty, honor. But being seven, we didn’t quite understand the gravity of the position our Grandfather was committing to. We watched as the bands marched by — the red, white, and blue streamers welcoming us to a new role: the family members of a President.

We also first saw the White House through the innocent, optimistic eyes of children. We stood on the North Lawn gazing with wonder at her grand portico. The White House was alive with devoted and loving people, many of whom had worked in her halls for decades. Three of the White House ushers, Buddy, Ramsey, and “Smiley”, greeted us when we stepped into her intimidating hallway. Their laughter and embraces made us feel welcome right away. Sasha and Malia, here is some advice to you from two sisters who have stood where you will stand and who have lived where you will live:

– Surround yourself with loyal friends. They’ll protect and calm you and join in on some of the fun, and appreciate the history.

– If you’re traveling with your parents over Halloween, don’t let it stop you from doing what you would normally do. Dress up in some imaginative, elaborate costume (if you are like us a pack of Juicy Fruit and a Vampiress) and trick-or-treat down the plane aisle.

– If you ever need a hug, go find Ramsey. If you want to talk football, look for Buddy. And, if you just need a smile, look for “Smiley.”

– And, a note on White House puppies–our sweet puppy Spot was nursed on the lawn of the White House. And then of course, there’s Barney, who most recently bit a reporter. Cherish your animals because sometimes you’ll need the quiet comfort that only animals can provide.

– Slide down the banister of the solarium, go to T-ball games, have swimming parties, and play Sardines on the White House lawn. Have fun and enjoy your childhood in such a magical place to live and play.

– When your dad throws out the first pitch for the Yankees, go to the game.

– In fact, go to anything and everything you possibly can: the Kennedy Center for theater, State Dinners, Christmas parties (the White House staff party is our favorite!), museum openings, arrival ceremonies, and walks around the monuments. Just go. Four years goes by so fast, so absorb it all, enjoy it all!

For four years, we spent our childhood holidays and vacations in the historic house. We could almost feel the presence of all the great men and women who had lived here before us. When we played house, we sat behind the East sitting room’s massive curtains as the light poured in illuminating her yellow walls. Our seven-year-old imaginations soared as we played in the enormous, beautiful rooms; our dreams, our games, as romantic as her surroundings. At night, the house sang us quiet songs through the chimneys as we fell asleep.

In late December, when snow blanketed the front lawn, all of our cousins overtook the White House. Thirteen children between the ages of two and 12 ran throughout her halls, energized by the crispness in the air and the spirit of the season. Every room smelled of pine; the entire house was adorned with thistle; garlands wound around every banister. We sat on her grand staircase and spied on the holiday dancing below. Hours were spent playing hide-and-go-seek. We used a stage in the grand ballroom to produce a play about Santa and his reindeer. We watched as the National Christmas Tree was lit and admired the chef as he put the final icing on the gingerbread house.

When it was time, we left the White House. We said our goodbyes to her and to Washington. We weren’t sure if we would spend time among her historical walls again, or ever walk the National Mall, admiring the cherry blossoms that resembled puffs of cotton candy. But we did return. This time we were 18. The White House welcomed us back and there is no doubt that it is a magical place at any age.

As older girls, we were constantly inspired by the amazing people we met, politicians and great philosophers like Vaclav Havel. We dined with royalty, heads of states, authors, and activists. We even met the Queen of England and managed to see the Texas Longhorns after they won the National Championship. We traveled with our parents to foreign lands and were deeply moved by what we saw. Trips to Africa inspired and motivated us to begin working with HIV/AIDS and the rights of women and children all over the world.

Now, the White House ballrooms were filled with energy and music as we danced. The East sitting room became a peaceful place to read and study. We ran on the track in the front lawn, and squared off in sisterly bowling duels down in the basement alley.

This Christmas, with the enchanting smell of the holidays encompassing her halls, we will again be saying our good-byes to the White House. Sasha and Malia, it is your turn now to fill the White House with laughter.

And finally, although it’s an honor and full of so many extraordinary opportunities, it isn’t always easy being a member of the club you are about to join. Our dad, like yours, is a man of great integrity and love; a man who always put us first. We still see him now as we did when we were seven: as our loving daddy. Our Dad, who read to us nightly, taught us how to score tedious baseball games. He is our father, not the sketch in a paper or part of a skit on TV. Many people will think they know him, but they have no idea how he felt the day you were born, the pride he felt on your first day of school, or how much you both love being his daughters. So here is our most important piece of advice: remember who your dad really is.”

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

What Can I Give?



Yesterday, Randy and I met with one of our dear friends who is a mentor of ours. Every time we meet with Him, the presence of God meets us there and uses him to speak wisdom into our lives. We are so grateful for these precious times and the encouragement we receive.

We shared with him all about our ministry, Monologue Culture. He really listened and wanted to hear our hearts. God used him to confirm some very specific things dealing with our ministry.

One thing he asked us which has been ringing in my head ever since: What do you have to give? Where do you intentionally bless another ministry or family? To whom do you give your over-and-beyond that God has blessed you with? It doesn't have to be money, but what if - EVERY meeting we went to - we brought a gift? What if when we go to mentor a previous student of ours, we bring food to his single mom? God cannot overflow us unless we are overflowing onto others - making room for HIS overflow.

What can I give? I may not have a lot of money, but I have time and abilities and words in which I can POUR out on those around me to create room for God to fill me back up.

What can YOU give?